Lies
asleep
in the next room with
a balloon above her head—
a dotted-line balloon—
a non-Euclidean space
which contains her
dream, which is
—I wish it were—
the balloon is empty, or,
her dream lies
around her,
an empty thought-balloon
to indicate the past,
its pure O of elegance.
How to make Balloones, also the Morter Peece to discharge them…
Into this Balloone you may put Rockets,
Serpents, Starres, Fiends, Petards.
Bate, Mysteries of Nature & Art, 1634
Any bursting a violence.
Inclined this way, the head is balloon-shaped
tightly filled with memory.
I was terrified a balloon would burst
at my lips, the sound would deafen me;
the concussion a rage released…
after the party, little deflated splashes
of color on the floor, also cake crumbs
and the sticky remains,
the breath of the mother decorating the day:
Symmetry is the chance to return tell me about your
to initial conditions…not nostalgia, life so far
just home; not home but humility,
the humiliation of symmetry plain and periodic agony
not agony but a ghostly monotony
behind the arras a mother not uncle, standing
breast forward awaiting a blade and a piercing peaceful
as desperation in a phone booth how far?
when phone booths were soundproof
when there were phone booths and the desperate would
make calls from there late in life or at night home
hoping Mom would answer, Dad already asleep.
106. Suppose some adult had told a child that he had been on the
moon. The child tells me the story, and I say it was only a joke, the
man hadn't been on the moon; no one has ever been on the moon;
the moon is a long way off and it is impossible to climb up there or fly
there.—If now the child insists, saying perhaps there is a way of get-
ting there which I don't know, etc. what reply could I make to him?
What reply could I make to the adults of a tribe who believe that people
sometimes go to the moon (perhaps that is how they interpret their
dreams), and who indeed grant that there are no ordinary means of
climbing up to it or flying there? –But a child will not ordinarily stick to
such a belief and will soon be convinced by what we tell him seriously.
121. Can one say: "Where there is no doubt there is no knowledge either"?
160. The child learns by believing the adult. Doubt comes after belief.
Wittgenstein “On Certainty”
